Closure. It's a beautiful thing.

This is how it feels to be free...

Honesty.
Truth.
Freedom.
The elephant has jumped off my chest.
Thank you.
Listening.
Still laughing.
Girls' night.
Movies.
500 Days of Summer.
Tears.
Death Cab for Cutie.
Knowing that there's still a "Doug."
Laughing more.
Nick and Norah.
Beauty.
The gaping hole is slowly closing.
Happiness.

Someday, you will be loved.

It's Like I'm Dreaming in Color

Post Christmas Chaos:
Four Hours Later:
Yeah. I CLEANED my room.

I get it!

I think I get it... Family Christmas isn't about this:It's about this:and this:I think this was the first Christmas that I really "got" it... Watching Ian open his presents was the highlight of the holiday. I loved everything I was given, but it was more fun to give this year. Looking on as my one-year-old cousin opened the pounding bench we gave him, and then stuck the hammer in his mouth like a pipe, was worth more than the clothes and games I received.
It's all because of the baby... not just the one in our family, but the One who is the reason for the holiday. Without Him, I wouldn't have a happy family. I wouldn't love Christmas, and we wouldn't have a reason to celebrate.

Someday, You Will Be Loved

I once knew a boy
In the years of my youth
With eyes like the summer
All beauty and truth
In the morning I fled
Left a note and it read
Someday you will be loved.

I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved

You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved

You may feel alone when you're falling asleep
And everytime tears roll down your cheeks
But I know your heart belongs to someone you've yet to meet
Someday you will be loved

You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved

You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
Someday you will be loved

Merry Christmas Eve Eve!!!!

There's snow on this side of the state.

I helped my grandma frost cookies.

I ate some ramen noodles for the first time in six weeks. (Not really Christmas related, but they were yummy.)

I ended with a 4.0 in Spanish; my other grades haven't been posted yet.

I get to see my baby cousin tomorrow.

But he's not a baby anymore.

Tomorrow is Uncle John's Christmas Eve service, followed by appetizers at Nanny's.

Then it's CHRISTMAS!!!

There's no other Man who could raise the dead.

Turning off my music and taking off my headphones is a bit like waking up from a really good dream.