Jaded

Note: I know as far as poetry goes, this probably sucks worse than my grandma's expensive vacuum... but in my defense, I just started typing and out poured… THIS.  Also, Blogspot may or may not decide to preserve my formatting.  I certainly hope it decides to. 

Jaded
Angry
Confused
Broken [promises]
More times than I can count[less]
lies, so many countless lies.
Never ending
Heartbreak
Giving, giving, giving
I want it back
My heart
my soul
my mind[less]
Rambling, so much rambling.
when is it my turn to take?
unnecessary roughness
guilt tripping words
sorry
pain[ful]
goodbyes with teary eyes
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hard[er and harder]
your eyes
pulling
yanking [me in]
telling me it's okay
it's not okay [i'm not okay]
I'm
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so wrong

but so right.