From Time to Time

Please note. This is all Jenney's fault. Her Oregon post made me nostalgic.

Bleak. Cold. Blank.

The snowy landscape

Matches my emotion

From time to time

I miss it so much

That I'm in physical pain

I lie awake

Staring, staring

Endlessly

Wishing to go back

Back to those endless drives

Those stupid arguments

Back to M-46 and M-99

Haunted arboretums and

Great deals on photos

Back to the movie theater

Sitting in my car, talking

The windows fogging up

Back to doing insane amounts of school work

Making dinner and cleaning up

Just because I wanted to

Back to having friends

And a life

I want to go back

Back to the student center

To poke fights and real worship

To sitting at Subway for all hours

Sharing a 2-liter of Mountain Dew

Back to counselor talks

Drinking tea and walking down railroad tracks

Back to spending hours in Blockbuster

Fighting over the evening's selection

Waiting for you to put your shoes on

Driving out of my way on purpose

I want to go back

Back to learning to drive in the snow

To pizza dates and movie nights

To laughing hysterically

Being who I really am

Back to gangsta impressions

Followed by deep discussions

Sheer honesty

I want to go back

But we can never go back

So I stare

Endlessly

Bleak, cold, blank

The snowy landscape

Matches my emotion

From time to time