This is what made me miss my exit...

It was just a few years in the making now.
The two were locked in a heated dispute,
'Cause he was gone when she needed him more.
Then she could really ever let on to.

They were the poster perfect high school sweethearts,
But moving out can't erase the time.
The two had spent on working it out and
Everybody knew that they were out of their minds.

Oh, you know you really need to settle down,
Let it go.
You know you really need to settle down,
You really need to let it go.

Consider this, he was moving on while
She was busy trying to pass the time
Between the previous and next nervous breakdown.
The girl had given up the love of her life.
And all the time that she was givin' up slowly
he didn't notice when she ran away
and when it came to finally letting him on
well this is every single word she'd say...

Oh, you know you really need to settle down,
Let it go.
You know you really need to settle down,
No you really need to let it go.
For good, forget his lies -
It's the only way to save your life.
'Cause this is restitution
For the love you've thrown away.

I've got to put a stop to all this, to all this being separated and then cut off.

Note: The "you"s in this particular post refer to SO MANY incredibly different people... that it's probably best if you don't analyze it too much. I just need to get this all out...
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When I opened the fridge today, I saw the bottle. It's been in there since June, but today I had to move it to make more room. Guaraná. I was saving it... for our reunion. You know, the one I've been planning in my brain since the last one ended. We were going to break trees, and hide in the woods when cars went by, and look at thousands of pictures from everything that's happened since the last time. We were going to laugh and talk. You were going to pass massive amounts of gas and blame it on the cat. Plans change. You've changed. I've changed. You don't have time for that now. You've got other priorities. I am no longer on the list of people you have to care about. I don't even know it you'll read this. And apparently it's time for me to drink that Guaraná already... by myself.

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I need you to need me as much as I need you. I can't bear the thought that someday I might wake up, and you'll just be gone. I can't handle it. At all. Everytime I think about it, my chest feels like there's an elephant sitting on it.. my head spins, and I can't breathe. Don't you dare go anywhere.
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It's not the same when you're not there. Who do I roll my eyes at when he says "lady gaGAH?" Who do I laugh with? Who do I talk to? Who do I sit by? Who do I pass notes to? No one. And they wonder why I'm in a bad mood, why I don't feel well. Deduce, Sherlock.
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It's not the actual getting married that I'm sad about. It's the fact that I'm losing another close friend... I can't keep being friends with you once you're married to her. Sure, she's great, and I'm glad you're in love... but girls and guys can't continue to be good friends when one of them is married. It just doesn't work.
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Well. that feels mildly better.

It's Like I Waited my Whole Life, for this One Bite...er... night...

So, I followed Jenney's suggestion and made the Pioneer Woman's mac and cheese.
Holy cow.
I grated an entire pound of cheese... Sent an emergency text to Jenney (that didn't go through for some reason) screaming "HELP! MY MILK, EGGS, AND FLOUR WON'T THICKEN!!" Seconds after that, it was amazingly thick.
I sprinkled a LOT of cheese on top, stuck it in the oven, and 25 minutes later. YIKES. This stuff is incredible. Absolutely amazing. Quite possibly the greatest thing I've ever cooked. Now, I realize that that statement doesn't mean much, since I haven't cooked very many things. But this stuff is GOOD.

The flash didn't quite allow me to capture the true beauty...So I turned it off.See? Gorgeous. It tastes good, too.

I'm not sure if you're aware...

...but that was supposed to be me. =/

They just spin in perfect little circles, and that's all that they know

Another blah English class today. Peer editing is no fun when none of the people in your class understand basic grammar.
"No, you see... when it's y-o-u-r, you're indicating possession..."
Christmas shopping with the youth group was fun. We ate at Quizno's. I like to say "toasty bullet."
I wrote my first ever letter of two weeks notice today. THAT was fun. *sarcasm*
Spanish exam in the morning, then like 3 hours to kill between classes. We're watching a Ken Burns documentary in History class. I hope he's British. British people are the only reason to watch documentaries.
I'm praying for a snow day.

I feel, like this is going nowhere.

I hate research papers.
I just opened my evidence box from last year... wow. I think I miss debate a little bit.
I need to go somewhere.
I need to meet with my boss soon.
I love Underoath. And Emery. And now, August Burns Red. And concerts.

Christmas is coming!

Hehe. It just hit me the other day that it's almost Christmas. Why?
Hmm. Well, in no particular order:
-We now have a large, artificial evergreen tree in our living room.
-The checkout screen at work reminds me to say "Happy Holidays" as people leave. (I say Merry Christmas- I'm a rebel. And also a CHRISTian. Therefore I celebrate CHRISTmas.)
-I went Christmas shopping for a little bit today. I have three people's gifts almost ready to wrap!
-There are Christmas drive (sorry. Holiday drive) boxes up at Mott.

Unrelated to Christmas, I just bought The Fold's new CD for $8.99. They didn't charge for shipping, and they're SIGNING it. Merry early Christmas to me!